i'm back from going outfield!

first of all, thank you aizhen for replying (so far). it's good to know that at least some classmates still miss the good ol' days. at least it means i'm not going insane/emo from daily training and being cut off from the rest of the world. but with results release coming up soon, that means i'll be able to see my classmates for one last time! (but that also means i'll probably never see all of them ever again. crap. will deal with that when the time comes) hopefully that day i can take many many photos with my classmates/friends!

i've never looked forward to a book out as much as this one, and although i'm going back in early for extra duty, which means i'll miss church for another week, as well as class dinner tonight, i still believe that verse which says that all things will work together for good. i just believe it.

training's going to be quite tough this coming week, but the Lord is my strength! after this week it should be better, but i'm also believing for a good week ahead too!

so agree with me!

it's about halfway through bmt!

but before i go back in for another week of confinement because of field camp, allow me to reuse my brain for the first time in weeks to prevent it from degeneration due to inactivity.

i seek your forgiveness if what i say seems to be painfully obvious, because once you're enlisted, "you see no day, you see no night, all you see is training", as my csm put it so aptly. so for me to say anything that makes sense should be regarded as quite an accomplishment already.

it has finally dawned on me what draws me (i don't presume to speak for others) to bookout days so much. apart from the obvious fact that we don't have to be ordered around, and even more important than having time to actually rest physically properly, is our chance to come back and meet real people.

human relationships. 2 simple words that mean so much to me right now. this cny break has allowed me to realise that above all that i cherish during my bookout times, it's the human interactions that i miss the most. now, don't get me wrong, we do interact with our platoon mates inside, as well as our superiors (though in this case it's 1-way communication), but seeing "civilians" (in our dictionary) is something entirely different. for one, you can talk about stuff besides training for once.

having said that, i do regret a little for not being able to spend more time with my friends (because for one reason or another a lot of people weren't free), though i am very thankful for having a great family, and for them to be there almost all the time, so that i wouldn't suffer more isolation. i could and should have spent less time in front of the com, and as each day passed i realised more and more that there's only so much gaming time you can have and not feel empty. surely there's more to life than just kotor/PES2008! maybe this is also why i sometimes wish i were attached, to have that "special someone" to spend time with. (ah the delusions of hopeless romantics) but i seriously believe that divine intervention is preventing me from having any sort of bgr because of the probably high chances of failure. still, sometimes one can't help but feel....... well, you know what i mean.


i do apologise for my lack of coherence in this post (how many times have i done this before?), but with another 12 days on tekong coming up, i'm starting to miss the people i've taken for granted these past few days again. and i don't want that to happen again.






you take my hand
and lead me to your side
your warm embrace
sets my heart on fire

you are my shelter
the God of all wonders
you are the hero of my life

i live for you
the saviour of my life
your love for me
is wider than the skies

you are my shelter
the God of all wonders
you are the hero of my life

you came for me
your life for mine
when i couldn't save myself

you bore my pain
my sin, my shame
jesus my lord my life






do tag/comment if you feel like it.

omg ns is like chinese high all over again. all boys only.

no girls. =(

clearly, i am still having adjustment issues.

'cos You came near
from the everlasting
into the world we live
the Father's only Son

japan trip

finally, just before i go, here's my post on japan. i'm too lazy to copy everything over, plus the photos, so just go here.

http://lahdder.livejournal.com/2008/01/08/

after an unconscious writing self-exile/hiatus for a full 2 weeks, i'm ready to pick up a pen, or rather, start typing, and write (ah you get my point) again.

but i apologise. at the present moment my thoughts are unfocused, there are quite a few ideas running through my head; mostly about love, change, and people; but also partly about my new valencia jersey (which i still am getting the euphoria over). i promise to tell all that i want to (and all that i have) as soon as i can. which, realistically, is when i am back in sg on 31st. so my post will probably come with new year greetings or whatnot. anyway, suffice to say that although this is a holiday trip, i've probably learnt more about myself and my loved ones on this trip alone than the whole year combined. who says holidays aren't educational? but i digress.

anyway, for those who didn't receive any smses, hope you still had a blessed christmas, and do have a better new year (wait that's for my next post =p)

out.

funny how, once after graduation from school, you lose contact with most of the people you spent your everydays with once, and how you don't even know what's happening to your so-called "closest friends" these days. though i hope it's just me.

and suddenly i'm very thankful for my church friends.

prom photos

i know i seem to keep biting my lip, but i was just trying to look cool. sorry lah.

http://s149.photobucket.com/albums/s69/lahdder/

post-prom

我打開窗簾靠在窗邊獨自望著藍天

腦袋裡留下全都是你在的畫面

Lord of All My Days

You are the truth
The light, the way
My trust is in the power of Your name
And in Your promises so true

It's not about all that I am
But all to do with
Who You are to me
And all that You have done

You saved me
'Cos You loved me
Your grace gave me the highest way
Now I live by Your life in me

I am found in You always
Lifting my voice to give You praise
To You and You alone
The Lord of all my days

© 2007 New Creation Church

jesusboy alvin knows that whatever happens, papaGod wants the best for him. and jesus will make all things work for the good of jesusboy who loves him.

only the best, nothing less.

月牙灣

Travis - Closer

I've had enough of this parade.
I'm thinking of the words to say.
We open up unfinished parts,
Broken up, it's only love.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now.

Keep waking up (waking up), without you here (without you here).
Another day (another day), another year (another year).
I seek the truth (seek the truth), we set apart (we set apart)
Second glance, a second chance.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now (lean on me now).

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
I'll never leave you... just need to get...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now (lean on me now).

closer, closer... closer, closer.

the most courageous thing one can ever do is to love.

More

Lord unveil Your face
As I worship You
Reveal Your majesty
Touch my heart anew

Lord unveil my eyes
To see Your glorious truths
The love You give so free
Has drawn my heart to You

I can't help but love You more
When more and more I see
How much I mean to You
Jesus
I can't help but want You more
When more and more I see
Your goodness unto me
I fall in love with You more and more

© 2004 New Creation Church

Living Word

Living Word You came
Speaking hope into my world
You change me

Living Truth You are
Light and glory to my soul
You fill me

I will not trust my arm of strength
Upon Your Word I stand

Jesus Your Grace has raised me up
Jesus Your Truth has set me free
To worship and adore You Lord
For all You are to me

I trust in You, abide in You
My hope, my strength

© 2007 New Creation Church

the letter

so it came. finally.

been expecting it for a week or so, but when edmund forwarded keat's sms about checking my enlistment date on that 1800 number, i just had to call. it didnt work for me, but edmund managed to procure information. then when i went home later, it finally arrived in the mail.

11 jan. if you want to buy 4d, buy sth like 1118 ok? but if got prize remember your source hor.

i'm going into school 1. so far, i've found 2 other people from school who are in the same school and day as me, but i'm hoping for more. still, if that doesn't happen, at least i'll get to make more new friends!

Shout Your Praise

Greater than this world that says
That I'm not worth much today
Is Your blood that washed my sins away

Higher than the signs that tell
Me of how much I fell
Is Your word declaring
You've lifted me up

So I, I believe
And I, I put my faith in You

Jesus all my worth is found in You
Lord I reign in this life
'Cos You have bought me with the highest price
Now in Your righteousness, Lord
I will stand
To shout Your praise
Lord, I shout Your praise

© 2007 New Creation Church

today, i realised once again, how blessed i am. having parents who really love me, and love me deeply; a PapaGod who loves me so much that He promises to never leave me nor forsake me; and a Saviour who is so mighty and loving to save.

and you know what? here's the best thing. this is all in spite of me. it's not because i've done anything to deserve it, but entirely by His grace. it's times like these that i feel so overwhelmed, that i just lift my hands in thanksgiving.

so what could i say?
what could i do?
but offer this heart, o God,
completely to You.

Yeshua - the great I Am of my life.