i thank God that He's been speaking to me all this while, throughout the past 2 weeks. through the people around me, through His word (although i haven't been exactly spending lots of time in it). and yet, i know for a fact that He still loves me, and i'm still in right standing with Him. Praise God!

see wah's right. learn from the past 2 weeks, realise that i'm not alone in facing these challenges, and that there are probably certain people out there who envy me (i say this by the Grace of God).

also, it's good to see and know myself that there are actually people who come to this blog. at least now i know it's not collecting cyberspace dust, and i'm not the only person who reads this blog. lol. i wish all those who visited this blog would leave a note (or comment, rather), even on the tag board, then i'd know who's in the audience. but then again, if i knew who read this blog, i'd probably not talk bad about them right? (not implying that i do) i mean, if i knew who read this blog, i'd probably write "safer" stuff - the weather, school life and stuff like that which probably wouldn't involve my audience.
but, never mind.

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just came back from the farewell dinner. i must say that personally, i didn't feel like it was a farewell dinner. it felt more like a party, more like the welcome dinner. but there were people getting all emotional, and i was starting to wonder if: i was desensitised/ not that close to others enough to be sad that we're parting / not sad because we're seeing other in around 3 months' time. i think it's no. 3. =P a lot of girls were crying, and even some boys. me? i was having a good time singing, and esp showing off my singing to kenneth who got a sore throat from screaming too much. hah. serves yeh right. =P scream some more lah! oh yeah, and we performed that song 约定 by 光良. quite nice lah, a lot of people cried.

update: just because i didn't cry doesn't mean i'm not unhappy that my buddy is leaving. heck, i've just got used to having him around. now that my parents are gone as well, albeit for a few days only, i'll be alone the whole weekend. guess i'll have WR and econs ilp to keep me company. but i do know of people who are actually indifferent to their buddies leaving, and maybe even to the extent that they're glad it's over. for me, i'm not sad 'cos i know we'll be seeing them very soon.

i also know that tonight, the majority of hc student hosts will be staying over at the relc hotel with their taiwan buddies (or at least try to, since the moe person said it's not allowed). i wonder. but i guess they'll be talking till probably when the taiwan students leave tomorrow. i wonder how they'll survive though, people like kay siong and kai herng spent last night talking with their buddies till like 4am. o.O

as for my buddy and i... maybe we're not as close as some other people. not that there's anything wrong, but maybe we know each other less deeply than a lot of other people. but i don't mind. i'd rather take the natural course: if got stuff to talk about then talk. if not i won't make that extra effort to talk. i don't know how to force myself to talk about many things; i've tried it before in the past and it doesn't really work. never mind lah, still got our turn to go there. maybe next time then i talk more, cos next time holidays liao, i'm the one who doesnt have deadlines to meet. =P but i still like my buddy, i found out that we're quite alike, we like to lame with people we know well.

update: wow. time's really flown past me for the past 2 weeks. i guess i've been so busy hosting and stuff, i never really realised how much time's passed. this also signals 2 less weeks to promos. now i can finally concentrate on mugging. it seems like just a few hours ago that i first picked up my buddy. as i look past, i think to myself, "really 2 weeks already meh?"

ok. long draggy post is over.

eh if anyone from TIP reading this, don't cry that the taiwan friends are leaving. we all seeing them in around 3 months anyway. and still got email contact what. cry what?